The First Hurdle

Making My Mind

Always, without exception, an unassuming mind is where the first obstacle begins. Also where most of the ideas are left to evaporate on their own accord.

Lack of Discipline could be next, but I will get there. I believe we nub our interests at the root, only because it's highly inconceivable in our mind first, and largely because we undermine our own capabilities. 

When anyone conveys self-doubt, I have seen myself bolt to express my sincere belief in that someone's adequacy, despite knowing nothing about them. However, when it comes to self, I've learned the best, an eternal debate ensues as if the task is to run a two-minute mile.

I'll tell you how I have been meaning to write more and that, to write every day. But I have my doubts. I am intimidated to tell anyone that I like to write for the fear that they will see through me. Imposter syndrome is real, and like many, I too have episodes with it. I once heard a Canadian Professor teaching a writing class asking how many students didn't feel deserved to be in the hall. Almost everyone raised their hands, including the Professor. I was in the seminar, too, and I was surprised to see that people, despite cultures and coming from different countries, think alike when it comes to doubts and internalized fears about skill, talent, or accomplishment.

I admit I could be lousy but isn't that the whole idea. 

To evolve. 

To become lousier and if the fish's feet permits become a tad bit better. 

Now, who's to say!

What's your first hurdle.? 

For me, it's confronting the inner voice that tells me I am a quitter or simply not enough. For me, It's always resolving, coming to a decision, and making up my mind.