Empty thoughts..

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It’s been a while since am here typing away my thoughts as they arise.



Another year zaps away like the scarf that broke free despite the clothespin she was fixed with,  after a fierce battle with the December winds. I often find myself brooding over on things that I never have the courage to undertake, like what if I went in search in the direction she left me.  If nothing I could have found her, soiled and scared, even wet but nonetheless still accounted for.


In the dim lights of my living room, resting on the couch and watching an orchestrated sequence of predictable situations on TV with my husband, I go back to the day I gave up on my shawl. Would I have brought her back, in case I found her. Would my feet be snugly covered under the warm comforts of my scarf instead of under my husband’s lap, which seems to do the job just?

 

And what do I do with the year that escaped me? 

Will I ever find it again, can those times return to me at least in my lucid dreams or perhaps the memory train that I jump on, can take me to times that were once mine. Worst case, I'll have to make do with the coming Year that seems to promise me the old Sun and a new Moon just as I was promised the year before.?!



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